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Hi! I am kind of here!
I have lost all concept of time, seriously. I've been going pretty much straight since before last week's 'awake Sunday-Tuesday' thing (a performance I was forced to repeat this week, yay), and I have absolutely sense of the passing of time any more. The last few weeks have been this long, protracted blur -- I mean, I could swear that last LJ entry was a day or two ago, not a week and a half.
Tuesday, fourth year design presentations and poster presentations*. Thursday, irrigation design presentations and a giant ass lab final that I only had a chance to start studying for that afternoon. I have a further ~150 pages due by Monday. It's not like I've been sitting around and wasting time, yo. I am, perhaps, over-involved and over-committed. I am perhaps being too hard on myself, because I am not living up to the exacting academic standards I have set for myself. I am not doing badly by anyone's measure, but I know that if I had time, I could be doing better. It is v. frustrating. (Perhaps, however, not as frustrating as being forced to read my infrequent and oft whiny entries, but I digress.) This is possibly because I have picked up a scholarship or two and, as such, feel guilty for not doing as well as I should be.
It's just that the sheer volume of things to be done is almost overwhelming -- and this is not my first year in the dual engineering/biology program, so I'm used to large amounts of work.
Oh, drat, I have a whole schwack of things due today I'd forgotten about.
I, um, really kind of hate my life. This is a happy, cheerful post (kind of) but I've been vibrating very tightly, and it feels kind of like something that was holding me together is about to snap. I've been just as hermit-like in real life as I have been online, and it's really rather starting to feel as if I have no friends. Wheeee!
The good news is that the term is almost done, so we can start on finals, yay!
* Design of a Bioremediation System for Hydrocarbon Spills. It's all very exciting.**
** Seriously, it is. I never claimed I was cool.
I would just like to say that it took me a ridiculous amount of time to correct the spell check on this post, because I just could not see the difference between what I'd written and what LJ was suggesting to me.
I have lost all concept of time, seriously. I've been going pretty much straight since before last week's 'awake Sunday-Tuesday' thing (a performance I was forced to repeat this week, yay), and I have absolutely sense of the passing of time any more. The last few weeks have been this long, protracted blur -- I mean, I could swear that last LJ entry was a day or two ago, not a week and a half.
Tuesday, fourth year design presentations and poster presentations*. Thursday, irrigation design presentations and a giant ass lab final that I only had a chance to start studying for that afternoon. I have a further ~150 pages due by Monday. It's not like I've been sitting around and wasting time, yo. I am, perhaps, over-involved and over-committed. I am perhaps being too hard on myself, because I am not living up to the exacting academic standards I have set for myself. I am not doing badly by anyone's measure, but I know that if I had time, I could be doing better. It is v. frustrating. (Perhaps, however, not as frustrating as being forced to read my infrequent and oft whiny entries, but I digress.) This is possibly because I have picked up a scholarship or two and, as such, feel guilty for not doing as well as I should be.
It's just that the sheer volume of things to be done is almost overwhelming -- and this is not my first year in the dual engineering/biology program, so I'm used to large amounts of work.
Oh, drat, I have a whole schwack of things due today I'd forgotten about.
I, um, really kind of hate my life. This is a happy, cheerful post (kind of) but I've been vibrating very tightly, and it feels kind of like something that was holding me together is about to snap. I've been just as hermit-like in real life as I have been online, and it's really rather starting to feel as if I have no friends. Wheeee!
The good news is that the term is almost done, so we can start on finals, yay!
* Design of a Bioremediation System for Hydrocarbon Spills. It's all very exciting.**
** Seriously, it is. I never claimed I was cool.
I would just like to say that it took me a ridiculous amount of time to correct the spell check on this post, because I just could not see the difference between what I'd written and what LJ was suggesting to me.
