Tossing things into text
Jun. 6th, 2003 09:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cherryNew icon. Hee. One of the few grad pics I have back that don't have a whack of other people in them as well, and I just don't feel right posting pics of others.
Decided against going to the rodeo because it's cold, windy, and raining sporadically. I deserve a day off, anyway. I've broken a month and a half on four or five hours of sleep a night, and it's starting to catch up with me. Really, we need longer days. That would fix things.
I have less than ten school days left, of high school. Ever.
We're doing Physics and Chem at lunch as well as class because we're not going to have enough information to write the departmentals. Unfortunately, lunch usually utilized to run/stock the servery, load the pop machines, organize orders, etc. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I'd missed more than half my classes this term doing SRC, band, and sports stuff.
No more high school. I don't get why people are always running high school down. Playing sports and hanging out with your friends. What's not to like?
I realized the other day, a little too late, that I didn't think of myself as a flute player (who doubles) any more, and neither does anyone else. I'm an oboist. And I have to give my oboe back, because my band director bought a division one for me.
The other day, my band direct told me that sometimes she wishes that music didn't come as easily to me as it did, because she'd have loved to see what I could really do. And you start to wonder. What if you'd practiced? What if you'd put in the time?
But. University status:
Saskatchewan: Was offered enough to clear my first year before I'd applied to the school. Was accepted in less than two weeks after submitting my application. Received a letter today attempting to recruit me into a non-engineering campus.
Someone at the U of S loves me. ::G::
Queen's: Am accepted. Offered less money than at the U of S. Need to have a decision in Kingston before the 16th. Yes, June 16th. June - fecking - 16th. The one that is in just over a week.
Toronto: Have not heard a word. ::Shakes fist:: No letter letting me know either way. They can't discuss my application by email. I can't get a hold of a real person on the phone, because when they say they're transfering me to someone who can help me, it's either busy or I get hung up on.
Stupid Toronto.
So. June 16th. Next Monday. I'm thinking I'm just going to accept at Queen's. I can always withdraw, but if it turns out Toronto burned my application, then I have an option other than the U of S.
I was going to make up a nice chart, with the pros and cons of each school, but with a third of that knowledge lacking, that does make it difficult. I've been talking to my friends, and their advice is about evenly split. Any attempt at reasonable conversation with my parents about it deteriorates quickly to non-conversation.
Tempers are kind of starting to wear thin. Had a conversation with a friend who kind of hangs on the fringes at school, and discovered he bears some ill feelings towards all 'popular' people.
Including myself. He thinks staying in Saskatchewan would 'be better for me in every way, shape, and form' because apparently, the fact that I'm popular means that I've never had to do anything by myself.
BS.
I'm not going to deny that there have always been people there to look out for me. I'm not going to deny that if I choose to leave my friends, it will be the hardest thing I've ever done.
But you know what? I'm going to be fine. It's all going to be okay in the end. I just wish I could get some more balanced opinions. People either want me to stay there, with them, or to get as far away as possible because they think that I could see or do something great.
I'm going to go to university. I am going to go. I'm going to be an engineer, even if I'm still iffy on the discipline. (Industrial at Toronto, civil at U of S or Queen's, I think. But that's why U of S and Queen's give you a general first year.) I'm going to make new friends, see new paces, and learn new things.
Bring it.
Decided against going to the rodeo because it's cold, windy, and raining sporadically. I deserve a day off, anyway. I've broken a month and a half on four or five hours of sleep a night, and it's starting to catch up with me. Really, we need longer days. That would fix things.
I have less than ten school days left, of high school. Ever.
We're doing Physics and Chem at lunch as well as class because we're not going to have enough information to write the departmentals. Unfortunately, lunch usually utilized to run/stock the servery, load the pop machines, organize orders, etc. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I'd missed more than half my classes this term doing SRC, band, and sports stuff.
No more high school. I don't get why people are always running high school down. Playing sports and hanging out with your friends. What's not to like?
I realized the other day, a little too late, that I didn't think of myself as a flute player (who doubles) any more, and neither does anyone else. I'm an oboist. And I have to give my oboe back, because my band director bought a division one for me.
The other day, my band direct told me that sometimes she wishes that music didn't come as easily to me as it did, because she'd have loved to see what I could really do. And you start to wonder. What if you'd practiced? What if you'd put in the time?
But. University status:
Saskatchewan: Was offered enough to clear my first year before I'd applied to the school. Was accepted in less than two weeks after submitting my application. Received a letter today attempting to recruit me into a non-engineering campus.
Someone at the U of S loves me. ::G::
Queen's: Am accepted. Offered less money than at the U of S. Need to have a decision in Kingston before the 16th. Yes, June 16th. June - fecking - 16th. The one that is in just over a week.
Toronto: Have not heard a word. ::Shakes fist:: No letter letting me know either way. They can't discuss my application by email. I can't get a hold of a real person on the phone, because when they say they're transfering me to someone who can help me, it's either busy or I get hung up on.
Stupid Toronto.
So. June 16th. Next Monday. I'm thinking I'm just going to accept at Queen's. I can always withdraw, but if it turns out Toronto burned my application, then I have an option other than the U of S.
I was going to make up a nice chart, with the pros and cons of each school, but with a third of that knowledge lacking, that does make it difficult. I've been talking to my friends, and their advice is about evenly split. Any attempt at reasonable conversation with my parents about it deteriorates quickly to non-conversation.
Tempers are kind of starting to wear thin. Had a conversation with a friend who kind of hangs on the fringes at school, and discovered he bears some ill feelings towards all 'popular' people.
Including myself. He thinks staying in Saskatchewan would 'be better for me in every way, shape, and form' because apparently, the fact that I'm popular means that I've never had to do anything by myself.
BS.
I'm not going to deny that there have always been people there to look out for me. I'm not going to deny that if I choose to leave my friends, it will be the hardest thing I've ever done.
But you know what? I'm going to be fine. It's all going to be okay in the end. I just wish I could get some more balanced opinions. People either want me to stay there, with them, or to get as far away as possible because they think that I could see or do something great.
I'm going to go to university. I am going to go. I'm going to be an engineer, even if I'm still iffy on the discipline. (Industrial at Toronto, civil at U of S or Queen's, I think. But that's why U of S and Queen's give you a general first year.) I'm going to make new friends, see new paces, and learn new things.
Bring it.
